User blog:JSal2K17/Am I Really that Hated?

It has occured to me that I am probably the most hated guy on the internet. I've come to the realization I'm just not a likable person no matter how hard I try to be. I can't make friends, everyone just see's the worst in me it seems. I know, I'm 33 years old and people are always going to assume the worst of me cause, of that age. But, it's not like I can just change back to being a pre teen or early teens. I wish I could. And, I know I've made mistakes as well with my crude comments but, those were only ever supposed to be me breaking the ice. Cause, I am a shy person and don't always know what to say in the heat of the moment. So, I just throw stuff to the wall and see what sticks. I just wish people would just get the chance to know me. And, get to know that I really am a nice person that just wants friends really. I also want to address the blog I wrote on my old account PAWPatrolfan83 PAW Patrol Actors. The only reason I wrote that was cause, I wasn't really thinking straight that day. I've been going through some real emotional problems since last year. Basically it was me tired of being ignored on twitter by not only everyday people. But, people I am fan of on this show. I never meant any harm in that post and I realize what a stupid thing I had done and took it down right afterwards. If so many people look down at me, maybe I do need to realize I just don't have a place in this world. That maybe me even being born was just a huge mistake?